Conceited

You’re a terrible person.
You fish for compliments.
You secretly enjoy that turmoil that women can’t spit out the bad taste of you, that is saturating their mouths.
Sharing your innermost fears and worries isn’t your way of being vulnerable, it is your way of hooking them by the hearts.

-m.t.

@7 hours ago
#conceited #self loathing #poem 
Hello old friend. It’s been a while since I have seen you last Earl.

Hello old friend. It’s been a while since I have seen you last Earl.

@16 hours ago
#tea #earl gray 

Seeing other people’s happiness makes me sick and hate myself.

@1 day ago
#confession 

Airplane mode

The stewardess tells me put my seat belt and shows me where all the emergency exits are for my safety.
The weather instigates promises of turbulence.
I kissed my loved ones good bye back at the gate.
Flight makes me nervous.
The air is old and stale.
The quarters are too close for comfort.
I have to fake being nice so that my neighbor is at ease and probably won’t shut up if I keep talking to them.
Necessary evil.
The plane takes off shortly after I let out a sigh of anxiousness.
I’m officially in airplane mode,
Above the sea of worries and problems.

-Phoenix Blackburn
hiiipowwwerrr

@2 days ago with 1 note
#poem #airplane #thinking 

"

1. When you cut yourself, clean and bandage it.

2. Do not start smoking cigarettes because the boy who broke your heart does.

3. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

4. Cutting calories doesn’t do anything but make you unhappy.

5. If the number on the scale rises, throw it out.

6. The first girl you ever “date” is going to call the police on you even though she lives three thousand miles away, because you’re going to tell her that you’re not in a good mental state shortly after you’ve “broken up”.

7. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

8. Break up with the boy who says, “You had a sexy phase!” when you tell him that you’ve dated a girl before.

9. Dating your friends is not always the best idea, but you can still be friends after you’ve broken up with her.

10. Your mother will try to become your best friend because you’re leaving for college soon. Let her.

11. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

12. Your closest friend will stop talking to you when you leave for college.

13. It’s okay to cry.

14. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

15. When you cut yourself again, clean and bandage it. Do not be ashamed.

16. Your anxiety is going to try and control your entire life. Tell it to shut the hell up, because you’re trying to live and that task is hard enough as it is.

17. The past has a funny way of coming back in the form of you developing a crush on another friend.

18. Try not to hate yourself for breaking up with your boyfriend.

19. If you’re still smoking, apologize silently to your mother.

20. When you want to kill yourself, don’t.

"

@5 days ago with 72900 notes

"

She gave her heart,
To a falling star.

She teared,
“your selfishness has robbed you of the man you could have been.
I wouldn’t change a thing about you.
I love you, my dear friend.”

"

Claudio Sanchez
(Coheed and Cambria)
@16 hours ago with 2 notes
#coheed and cambria #claudio sanchez #lyrics #afterman 
t-esserae:

sombr-e:

Pre-breakfast green tea and lemon everyday of my life

girlfriend 

t-esserae:

sombr-e:

Pre-breakfast green tea and lemon everyday of my life

girlfriend 

(via wild-nirvana)

@16 hours ago with 617 notes
Dope.

Dope.

(Source: reyairia, via wild-nirvana)

@2 days ago with 187720 notes

Reincarnation

Movie theaters and high school hallways.
Scrutiny and happiness.
Bent over a toilet in a powder room.
She was my first life time.

I was reborn as a horse.

Laughs and summer heat.
Prom attire and hormones raging.
false positives of love.
She was my second life time.

I was returned as a dandelion.

She screamed the first time that we enjoyed each other’s company.
Seafood and costume characters.
She was a liar and I was a fool.
My third life time ended.

I was reborn as a sea horse.

Lust and intrigue.
Smiles, laughs, and life lessons.
Experienced teenager and an experienced yet inexperienced middle aged woman.
Both of us, immature.
She carried my pair of brown eyed, sunshines but they didn’t complete the journey.

I was reborn a rabbit.

Several vows of celibacy were replaced with eruptions and experimentation.
Practice rooms, hotel rooms, kitchen floors, staircases, back seats of cars, and hillsides.
Feelings purposely ignored, but painfully reminded us that we are human.

I was reborn as an aardvark.

Evading public sight.
Vulnerability and secrecy.
Clear and opaque communication.
Tsunamis of passion.
Physical, emotional, and spiritual unity.
Fights solved peacefully.
My Chaotic psyche took hold.

Life as a chicken was interesting but short lived.

I repeated my life as a dandelion, moksha continues to evade me.

Shared passions.
Seemingly endless bliss.
Occasional manageable thunderstorms.
Commitment.
Vulnerability.
Facing adversity, standing as one.
Synchronized sleeping patterns according to emotional disturbance.
Urges that were never acted on.
The tyrannical psyche oppresses the realm again.

My life begins anew as a grain of sand.

-Phoenix Blackburn
hiiipowwwerrr

@2 days ago with 1 note
#poem #love #hate #turmoil #life #reincarnation #sex #psyche 
vainajala:

I did something

So cool!

vainajala:

I did something

So cool!

(via wild-nirvana)

@5 days ago with 1153 notes